Counting Down
By admin | March 2, 2009
Counting down, Oh Yes, I am counting down, So super excited to the collection…
9 more days to go and it’s mine!!
Counting Down is just so shiok!!
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Perhaps …
By admin | February 27, 2009
Perhaps I should take it easy
So that things won’t turn out ugly
Perhaps I should let it be
So that life’s be easier
Perhaps I should get out of the ‘ice world’
So that I can see a more beautiful me
Perhaps … Perhaps … Perhaps …
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I wonder …
By admin | February 26, 2009
I wonder why some people are so much in love and yet they can’t be together
I wonder why some people do not love each other and yet they are an item
Sometimes I just wonder …
WHAT IS LOVE EXACTLY …
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Emotion, Love and Co-Dependency
By admin | February 25, 2009
by: Rion Williams
How is it that so many people will do all kinds of things based on their emotions?
How is it that people will do stupid, illogical, or miraculous things? Because of emotion.
Emotion influences behavior more than anything else. As in ‘The Secret’, you can have the logic but it’s often not enough to spur things on.
“You have to FEEL it.” Emotion truly is a blessing and so many adults including myself have forgot the amazing power of it.
If we could harness emotion and use it to our advantage with some form of control of it’s contextual use, we can accomplish a lot more.
Emotion in it’s purest form is overwhelming and inspirational.
There are different forms of emotion. Jealousy, lust, love, romance, envy, hate, rage, joy, happiness, pride, sorrow, pain, bittersweet loss, etc.
what’s interesting to me is that emotion is close to natural alpha character. And most happy emotions are evident in women who are not as socially conditioned.
The further someone ‘develops’ logically or socially, the further they will generally get away from their natural character and ability to feel emotion.
People will say that men aren’t emotional. No, we actually are.
But we do show emotion in different ways, but otherwise we often go through the exact same emotions as women.
So how do you create more emotion or experience it? I’d say not to get involved in co-dependencies or open yourself up to being ‘used’, but rather get in touch with your natural character.
Experience the natural character of the opposite sex.
Can you create emotion? Yes, or rather more accurately, you can harness it. Producer’s do it all the time, usually to add value. Marketer’s have gotten really good at it, usually to influence behavior of a buying decision.
Why not take control over the use of it and start bringing the truth of it back into your life? That’s what I’m doing now.
I haven’t felt lonely in probably 15 years because I built up walls to protect myself from other systems and people (especially in the Army where I had to).
Now, I’m finally opening up again to feel things. I wondered how anyone could ‘be happy’. Thinking positive just didn’t do it for me. I couldn’t fathom how people could whistle and sing because it was sunny out. Now I’m starting to realize why.
It’s because of emotion. It’s because of their connection to nature and their natural (biological) character.
Other than negative emotions and their behavioral byproducts, there is a bad side of emotion. When emotion is used or exploited in the wrong types of relationships.
Emotion is also closer correlated to co-dependency than independence.
This is why millions of men and women will continue to stay in relationships that are otherwise completely unbeneficial to them.
One of my friends is stuck on an X-girlfriend for the emotional ‘kick’ he gets out of it despite her erratic behavior. Yet it’s still an emotional co-dependency of all kinds of unhealthy drama.
However, there are a few people who can experience it all. Think of Tony Robbins and you might get an idea. And don’t think you have to be a millionaire to be ‘happy’.
Actually, it’s often the poorest people in the world that are really the happiest. Emotion is value. Go to a village in South Africa and you’re entire reality could shift. You’ve been valuing the wrong things your whole life when perhaps you looked down upon ‘poor’ people.
They have the most natural character as well as the purest emotion.
Men who have independence and only operate interdependently with other people can now have all the benefits of emotion WHILE maintaining relational authority and control without co-dependencies.
This is a tremendous amount of power yet with control as well.
We have enough logic not to do something stupid yet we can bask in the pure natural flow of emotion itself.
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Genting 2009
By admin | February 23, 2009
Some pics taken in Genting with my loved ones…
At the outdoor theme park. Basically, this was for Dylan…
Dylan’s favourite bumper car. From an unskilled driver to a skilled driver!
This trip won’t be possible if not for them… Thank You!!
The Buddies.
Also wanna thanked dearest Uncle, Auntie, and their 3 lovely kids for looking after Dylan during the 2 nights while we were ‘in’ there! Unfortunately no pics were taken with them during the trip..
We drove to K.L. for shopping on our way down from Genting. Lots of shopping and yes, the things are cheap, cheap, cheap! On the way back from K.L., we had our sumptuous dinner at one of an ulu place in J.B. Thanks Wen for the great recommendation! My first time there and I really felt like a mountain tortise! Ha.. Some interesting pics below:
Yummy Yummy Yummy!
See the way we ate, you’ll know: DELICIOUS!
You know what, a nice dinner can never go without COKE!! Haha..
Thanks for viewing!
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Genting Genting
By admin | February 13, 2009
Yes, Genting again..
Say not going anymore since my last visit last Nov/Dec..
But still..
Cannot resist.. What?? Gamble??! No la…
It’s the get-together with my loved ones… =)
Perhaps Singapore is just plain boring, or there is nothing more I fancy
But the short getaway is just fine, is just perfect…
This Valentine’s Day… is more than just a love trip… ♥
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Bothered or not Bothered
By admin | February 6, 2009
I don’t need you to be nice
Cos I know you aren’t that nice either
I don’t need you to care
Cos I know you don’t really care either
Perhaps that’s the last I see you
For that last and that’s it
Enough is enough
So why should I care
Perhaps that’s the reason why so alone
Like it or not and that’s it
I won’t change for the sake of changing
Cos’ THIS IS ME
WHO CARES ANYWAY
towards f_i_ n_ s i’m dishearten …
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爱是。。。 。。。
By admin | February 3, 2009
爱是忍让
但能忍多久？
爱是包容
但能包容多久？
爱是接受一切的不完美使一切的不完美变成完美
但有多少人真正能办的到呢？
一个人的限度不是有限的吗？
究竟到底什么是爱？ 如何才叫爱？
也许我根本不懂爱 没资格说爱。。。
或也许我真被搞糊涂了
一切理智都变得不理智了。。。 。。。
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Brand New Year
By admin | January 3, 2009
It’s a brand new year… Didn’t blog for the past few weeks cos’ dunno how should I conclude the end of year 2008… Especially the last two weeks of 2008, so much happenings, dunno it’s good or bad. Anyway it’s over and MOVE ON… …
My New Year resolution for 2009:
- Help hubby with his biz, grow and expand it
- Explore new biz
- Earn lots and lots of money
- Be smart
- Pass my advance theory and finally Practical
- Slim down
- Travel (no more asian countries pls!)
- Everybody around me to stay happy and healthy always
- Smile more
- Less FB
- the list goes on …
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Some Realization
By admin | December 19, 2008
Things don’t always turn out the way you wanted to be
If it happens, it’s a blessing
If it doesn’t, nothing to lose
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It happened to me twice!!!
By admin | December 15, 2008
Have you ever got scolded by strangers in the public? I did!!
I was shopping at Suntec City with hubby and Dylan last Saturday. It was not very crowded. Hubby was looking at some stuff at one of the pushcarts while I proceed along with Dylan. (Dylan was in a pram). As usual, playing with Dylan, I wriggle the pram as I pushed him. A man of age around 50+ walked past me hastily, head turning around to face me and remarked in a rude manner, “You wriggle the pram blocking the pathway!” Stunned for a second, knowing that I am not obstructing the passageway I retaliated, “I did not block the way since there are plenty of room for you to cross.” “ASSHOLE”, he shouted at me as he walked off.
Period!!
I was super angry cos’ in no way I deserve an “ASSHOLE” from a stranger for playing with my son without obstructing the general public. As I could not run up to confront him, I immediately signalled to hubby who was a distant away and as he came forward, I summed up the situation to him. The guy was in red, so without 2nd thoughts, hubby hurried his footsteps and caught up with him while I followed behind. Hubby asked, ” Mister, did you just scold my wife?” The man, “Yes I did. She was wriggling the pram.” When he saw me, still angry I was, “You could have just say excuse me if I was blocking the way, no reason for you to scold me!” He realised he was at fault, but still kept quiet. Hubby said, “How could you use such a word on a lady?” I think you should apologise to her.” After some thoughts he said, “Fine! I’m sorry then.” And walked off. A few people gathered around and look, I don’t care cos’ I was not at fault.
2nd incident:
About a year ago.
Amanda was still pregnant with Scotty then. We were shopping at Bugis junction. After we finished our shopping, we were heading to the taxi stand, going to her home. As I sprained my leg, I could not walked fast especially I am holding Dylan. So Amanda went ahead to queue for the taxi in the taxi stand. When I came forward, a man in his 50s together with his wife and his teenage son was in the queue already. So I said, “Excuse me, my sis is in front, I need to go forward.” He let me past but in an angry tone, he scolded me for ‘jumping” the queue. RIDICULOUS. Thinking that I was not at fault, and why should I get scolded for no reason, I retaliated. “It’s not as if I am cutting the queue. For the matter of fact, my sis was already in front of you and I could not walk fast and I am with a child, i am not at fault for joining her. Morovever, I did say excuse me.” “You could have said, “Excuse me sir, can you let me past” in a polite manner”. “Why should I say “Excuse Me” the way you wanted me to say? I don’t even know you.” Amanda kept quiet all the way. The wife spoke up for him. Two of them joined forces to scold me. Very nastily, he said” How would I know if you are a CALL GIRL with a child waiting for taxi.”
Period.! I was not wearing anything revealing. A polo shirt with skirt.”A CALL GIRL” I’ll never forget that.
Amanda finally spoke up,” How could you anyhow scold people using such terms.” Both of you added up are already in your 100s and yet still childish, etc. She went on and on like machine gun. And of cos, me still terribly angry, shouted back at them for insulting me, and I told them I wanted to sue them for defamation, etc.” The teenage son of theirs kept pleaing with the parents to stop their nonsensical acts while kept apologising to me. They realised the words they used were too strong and finished off by saying, “let’s not argue with them.” without apoloigising to me. There were a huge crowd. Our taxi came and we boarded the taxi. I should not have let the matter rest cos it is very damaging.
I asked hubby if I have an offending face. Why on earth I kept bumping into such people. Hubby said sometimes perhaps people are just in a bad mood and we, without knowing it, stepped onto their feet hence they find a chance to let it off their chest without realising what they did was wrong, especially I am a girl. Easy target. It make sense.
But still, I am quite upset. Cos the this is not the first time. Oh man!!!
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Updates
By admin | December 9, 2008
Didnt realise it has been almost 2 weeks since I last update my site. Been pretty much busy with stuffs.
Went to Genting with family last last week, suppose to be a night’s stay ended up became a 3days 2 night trip. We rented a Honda Stream as there were 8 of us, 6 adults and 2 kids. Both hubby and myself often drove up there few years ago, luckily we still manage to get up there after almost a year (with the help of GPS, this is simply a great invention!) Since kids were involved, theme park was not to be missed. Hmmm casino also not to be missed for us, and of cos’ the end result, what do you think??
Dylan and Kyan
The kiddy top gun, Dylan was so afraid to take the ride but after seeing Kyan playing it for 5 rounds, he was convinced it was not that scary afterall..
Rena and Keith, Mum and Liping
Kyan and me…
Did not take too many pics though, cos’ our focus is not there!! U guess what’s in all our mind???
Was in search for a new house for the past months and finally got one of our choice. So glad… Gonna have to have a home of my own again… But I guess that’s gonna be in April or May cos’ of all the procedures and documentations. Staying in Singapore, that’s it: wait and wait…
Right now I am cracking my head how to do up the house etc, so exciting!! My first house was a 5-room and now it was more than that, so pretty much different in terms of design and outlook. Hmmm, I wanna a modern theme, as simple as possible yet not much money involve to spend on the renovation, possible??
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Endure Endure Endure
By admin | November 27, 2008
Yes I have to keep reminding myself to ENDURE especially over OVER-PARANOIDness
HATE IT
but what else can i do ?
JUST ENDURE
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Meeting up
By admin | November 26, 2008
Went drinking last friday with Elson. He brought me to Hushx2 this time round. Just 2 of us with a barrel + a jug of beer. Still wide awake. (Applause to me, still a good drinker!) Actually dun really like to drink but I must admit, once in a blue blue moon is fine and its kind of enjoying to destress.
Spent almost 6hrs so what did we do? Pass the time by playing dice games (whatever he can think of to teach me) and hears him sing. He is a good singer. So, dun mind to hear him sing. And also he was more of like accompanying me to kill my ’stress’ so alright la. I’m a listener anyway.
Thanks bud, for accompanying me. (after turning down 7 dates that nite and yet let me be no.8)
Dinner with Sharon at Shokudo, Raffles City last night. Been ages since I last met up with her too. Took the wrong bus and ended up taking train to meet her. A 10min journey becomes a half an hour journey! What is exactly wrong with me? Dun understand! Became her laughing stock after telling her my encounter. Anyway lucky its her lor, cos’ cannot imagine if its others. Realise I becomes a lot dummer whenever I meet up with her, or I am always like that??? Guess I am still not in the right state of mind and the drink session with Elson doesn’t help at all. 
Whatever la, thanks pal, for the dinner date and let’s have more soon…
P.S: No pics taken which usually I will cos put on quite alot of weight recently, feels myself all swollen up! Not nice!! Time to lose lose weight!!!!!
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Oh Please
By admin | November 25, 2008
Control CONTROL Please CONTROL
bear in mind
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If letting go is so easy
By admin | November 21, 2008
A friend of 16 years called up recently. Supposed to meet up but wasn’t materialised. However we managed to chat a little.
The last time we spoke was probably a year ago? I can’t remember. She was in a midst of preparing her divorce then. Her ex-husband of 1-2 years younger cheated her. She has a daugther of 5-6 years.
She sounds a changed and happy person now. She shared that she had signed the papers recently. Switched job, lose weight (she was very determined to lose weight when she told me her hubby left her, to somehow prove to him that she is still somebody and someone wants her) and has a new boyfriend.
I am surprise and feel happy for her. But somewhat disappointed. She left her daughter with her ex-husband in search of a new and better life. She now lives with her boyfriend.
Perhaps it took her a long time to reach this decision - leaves her daughter. And I am sure the healing process is not easy too. But somehow I still could not accept it. Probably I am a mother myself. She is not the only to reach this decision. There are others too.
I am wondering:
- Why when 2 persons are so much in love, they can do everything for each other but when they falls apart, they become enemies immediately? (though some still remains as friends)
- Why one is so much willing to give up his/her love ones in order to seek other form of happiness?
- Why can’t forgive?
- What is the world turning into? What is exactly in their mind?
- Why can’t they work things out?
Perhaps I know all the above answers, but unwilling to accept the cruel truth.
Perhaps I am still living in my wonderland, believing that true love does exist and each time is always a happy ending. And I do not want to ruin this belief for I know: at least it is happening to me. ♥
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Is it the end?
By admin | November 19, 2008
It’s sad that things turn out this way.
Are there no chance for reconciliation?
Have you really wonder why? Is it entirely the other party’s fault or could the fault be in you too?
Have both of you put yourself in each other’s shoes? Can you see things at a different perspective?
Have both of you spare a thought for others who love and care about you? Or you only think for yourself ?
There is no right or wrong decision, only circumstances that lead to the decision.
No regrets, no turning back…
Wish you well, from my heart
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Spare Me
By admin | November 18, 2008
I am just not interested so please don’t tell me
I am just so sick so please don’t bother me
I am just so tired so please spare me
Spare me Spare me PLEASE Spare me
I don’t care and I don’t wanna to know
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Friends
By admin | November 17, 2008
Met up with Dorothy for lunch a few days ago.
It has been almost 6months since her wedding that I saw her. Well, though is a short meeting, I suppose we both enjoyed the lunch.
Thinking back at her first statement when we met: “Wah, you seems super extremely busy, finally I get a chance to see you!” (something like tat la) Kinda embarassed here, cos’ she’d make attempts to ask me out but it seems I am always the one who can’t make it…
Sorry my friend, if I failed you, which is never intentional. I’m sure you understand…
Dorothy - a funny girl, very chatty and never fails to break silence in every conversation. A great pal? Yes, you definitely are but not me…
Perhaps due to past experiences, ‘best friend is never in my dictionary’ What are friends? Who are your good friends? etc, Disappointments from friends, etc I’m getting numb.
A few close ones are indeed needed for you never know when you might need them, and of cos’ deep in my heart I know who you are. Needless to say.
Just wanna say, thank you my friends, for being there… What else…
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Just wanna let it off my chest
By admin | November 11, 2008
Sometimes I don’t understand: -
Why do you pay for a service and yet you are at the mercy of the other party?
Why is it because you are soft spoken and yet easily being taken advantage of?
Why do you love someone so deeply and yet you can say things to hurt each other?
Why is it you care and yet you don’t show?
Why do you show you care and yet you actually don’t?
Why is it things don’t always don’t turn out the way you wanted to be?
Why? Why? Why? Why?
It is just so frustrating… It is just so annoying…
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